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@SpeedRcrX> Man

FireFly_9> What's going on, Haruka-poppa?

@SpeedRcrX> F[BLEEP]k.

@SpeedRcrX> I do this coaching thing at the Junior Racing league on the weekends

FireFly_9> My condolences to the racers...

@SpeedRcrX> Real f[BLEEP]king funny, 'Taru

FireFly_9> Sorry, sorry. go on~

@SpeedRcrX> So yeah, I basically got control of one of the tracks a few months back, and I try to run s[BLEEP]t as best I can.

FireFly_9> Right.

@SpeedRcrX> The problem is there's this one guy who just WILL NOT f[BLEEP]king listen to me.

@SpeedRcrX> The only time he does is when I put on my "I RUN THE GODDAMN TRACK" hat and threaten to lay the smack down.

FireFly_9> Some people only respond to authority figures?

@SpeedRcrX> Man, it's f[BLEEP]king degrading.

@SpeedRcrX> It's like, this guy has no respect for me as Ten'ou Haruka the human being; or the notion that the words coming out of my f[BLEEP]king mouth might have some merit.

@SpeedRcrX> My words are only important to this guy when they impinge on his ability to use the track.

@SpeedRcrX> And most of the time I need to call in the owner of the track to back my ass up.

@SpeedRcrX> I wasn't GIVEN authority to have to call in my boss to do my job.

FireFly_9> Is this one of the people who have issues with you because you're a female racer?

@SpeedRcrX> F[BLEEP]k if I know.

@SpeedRcrX> I mean, I'm at my f[BLEEP]king wits end here.

@SpeedRcrX> I'm tired of trying to make myself clear.

@SpeedRcrX> It's like... words have failed. I wanna use a crowbar to the head. Repeatedly. Like 50 times.

FireFly_9> Are you being totally ignored?

@SpeedRcrX> No see, it's like a halfway compliance.

@SpeedRcrX> Whenever I b[BLEEP]ch and make a BIG stink, things changen then slip back after a while

@SpeedRcrX> It gets to where I've repeated myself so much people just think I'm b[BLEEP]ching to hear myself talk, which is NOT the f[BLEEP]king case.

@SpeedRcrX> I have better s[BLEEP]t to do than constantly stick my nose in.

FireFly_9> It sounds very stressful.

@SpeedRcrX> It *is*.

@SpeedRcrX> I love racing man, it's in my blood.

@SpeedRcrX> But s[BLEEP]t like this just sucks the wind out of my sails.

@SpeedRcrX> It's like... BE A GOOD RACER.

@SpeedRcrX> LISTEN when people talk and don't just comply begrudgingly.

// J_Daito //> Hah I'd just suck the energy out of your troublemaker and end the problem.

@SpeedRcrX> Man, I can't do that

@SpeedRcrX> The guy has the potential to be a great racer, but man, sometimes I just want to get the hammer and f[BLEEP]king hammer some nails down

// J_Daito //> Stop being nice, that's your defect.

FireFly_9> Haruka-poppa, nice? HAH! That's a new one!

@SpeedRcrX> Man I can be nice.

FireFly_9> To people you want something from, perhaps

@SpeedRcrX> Shut up, I'm a nice person

Mdm_Maestro> Haruka is very nice

@SpeedRcrX>

FireFly_9> Let's not get into this discussion

FireFly_9> So what are you going to do, Haruka-poppa?

@SpeedRcrX> Dunno.

@SpeedRcrX> I want to get the f[BLEEP]king board of education and educate a b[BLEEP]ch

// J_Daito //> THAT'S THE SPIRIT!

FireFly_9> You're not helping, Jedite.

FireFly_9> Haruka-poppa, have you ever tried telling this person your feelings?

@SpeedRcrX> Oh GOD tons of times.

@SpeedRcrX> It just devolves into either a yelling match, or stony silence, or like ... subtle s[BLEEP]t I can't even describe.

FireFly_9> Like what

@SpeedRcrX> I don't even F[BLEEP]KING KNOW anymore.

@SpeedRcrX> Sometimes I think it's just pure instinct reaction on my part.

FireFly_9> Overanalyzing?

@SpeedRcrX> I don't think so. I try to ignore it but it's like OMG.

@SpeedRcrX> It's like a ripe fat pimple on a hot girl's unblemished face. You just can't help notice it, and it gets f[BLEEP]king aggravating because it's ALL you can laser in on after a while.

FireFly_9> Nice image there 9_9

// J_Daito //> Just pop the zit~

@SpeedRcrX> Man like I said, I can't.

@SpeedRcrX> Some zits need popping and some just need acne medicine.

@SpeedRcrX> I want to get all Clearasil on this s[BLEEP]t.

FireFly_9> This metaphor annoys me.

@SpeedRcrX> Why, Taru, it's not like you have enough blood in your face to make zits.

FireFly_9> ... I hate you. So very deeply.

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