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Even "good" games can be as Bad as WoW. Are you being lost to them??

2010年05月01日

I was thinking a lot tonight about games, and stuff. In the past I used to make fun of people who got lost in MMOs like World of Warcraft, but then I realized-- what's the difference between getting lost in Warcraft versus an online chat RP, or a console RPG, or an MMO, or even D&D?

If you're a player who does this, in all cases you're choosing to hang out with a small group of friends (or no one at all in the case of a console RPG) and just leveling / getting achievements / whatever. In the meantime you're shutting out your friends on the outside of the game who might worry about you, or even care for you. It's all the same, whether it's WoW or Persona or Final Fantasy. You're isolating yourself in the game, away from the world, away from other people.

Haruka-san was wondering the other night about this, whether it was an addiction, or a way to feel empowerment and control over an environment. Like she was saying, a game is good in that you know what the rules are, what the limits of the other characters / classes are, and you can turn it off whenever it gets scary, tiresome or annoying, where with people you can't have that certainty, or just turn them off (but you can shut them out).

I dunno the answers, or if she's even right. All I know is it's really easy to bury yourself in something fun and familiar all the time, rather than go out and experience new or inconvenient things with other people. After all, other people make demands-- they want your time, your emotional support, your energy. Kind of like Jedite, except they usually don't want the energy for anything bad. But it is tiring. I can't even keep up with some of my friends.

You have to take a look at things. Sure, gaming is fun, and a great hobby. But 10 years from now, if you've locked everyone in your life who cares about you away because you gave all your time to the games, in 10 years you'll have a bunch of game skills and no one around to be your friend. No matter how much other people care, they can't show it when they're shut out completely with no contact. They'll think-- right or wrong-- that you're not interested in being their friend anymore, they'll grow distant and go away because they'll feel unwelcome. And if you do talk to them, but only when it's super-convenient for you, they'll just feel used, because they'll remember what it used to be like when they could just talk anytime-- or at least more of the time.

If there's one thing I'm really afraid of in my whole life, even with my wonderful friends, it's being thrown away by them. I've been selfish a lot when I was younger... sometimes I'd be so wrapped up in a relationship or with some new item that I'd stop paying as much attention to the people around me who cared about me. Sometimes I didn't even realize I was being that way, but I was. I was throwing them away. I'm just lucky they cared about me enough not to throw me away when they had every right to.

So now I go out of my way to try and stay connected with the people I care about, even if it means I have to take time away from other things. Because 5, 10 years down the road, I still want to know them, make jokes with them, be friends with them.

It's hard. Sometimes I want to be alone for a bit with my thoughts, or I am too exhausted to keep up with even a simple conversation. But I stick with it because I know the people trying to talk to me care. No matter what our differences of opinion, they care for me, and love me, and I love them for it.

If you're one of these people running from the world, or enjoying yourself just getting lost in game after game, I'm begging you-- take a look up once in a while, and remember that you do have friends outside of the games who miss you, and want to see you around. You're only alone if you make yourself alone-- and if you do, you only have yourself to blame.

It might feel romantic to declare yourself someone shunned by the world and take the steps needed to make that a self-fulfilling prophecy by locking out those who'd care for you, but doing that you're really just cheating yourself. A lot. And you won't know how much until you're a lot older and it's too late to pick up the pieces.

Please think about it.

Thanks to Hotaru-chan for correcting some things like "Pick up the Pizza" and "Celestine Prophecy"

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